Just wanted to check in, I woke up under 120 today which was QUITE the delightful surprise, but it's not a weigh-in day for me, so just taking it one day at a time.
I'm currently reading "Brain Over Binge" as recommended to me by member KirstyKay, and I love it. It talks about a really simple way to end addiction to things by rewiring your brain. She had almost my exact same experience: developing anorexia during high school, turning to bulimia once survival instincts kick in, issues with binge eating and so much therapy to discover WHY you're doing it, etc. I'm really excited, I tried her method once, which is to separate yourself from the urge, and it worked, rather than fighting the urge or letting yourself be consumed with it.
Full disclosure, I also struggle with smoking from time to time which I've written about before, and I'd liken that particular craving with food cravings, so I'm going to try it with quitting smoking for GOOD. I'm a singer, so it's idiotic that I damage my vocal chords in that way, not to mention it just being horrible for your health, but I'm an addict. HOWEVER, I'm not going to excuse my addiction, because the author is right, we choose to do those things. Also, I'm tired of being forever on the nicotine patch when I CHOOSE to buy a pack of cigarettes, smoke a few, then throw soap and water on them and throw them away, only to do it again a month later.
My secret, though not secret since I'm posting it!, desire, is to go off the patch immediately and try this method with those particular cravings, but I am worried about the physical reaction to that. I've done it before: I feel drugged, sick, and unable to perform simple tasks. If I could take maybe three days off of work and do that and just stay in bed and let my body deal with healing (it shouldn't take too long, to be honest) I would. And maybe I'll do it without being able to take off. I don't like being on the patch, it makes me jittery, and then when I take it off at night, my body goes through nicotine withdrawal and I wake up with that feeling: drugged. I have to force myself out of bed and have so much trouble waking up. Being free of that (and I have been before, so I know how lovely it feels) would feel magical.
So it's probably time to give that a shot, eh?