Turned down chocolate from coworkers trip to Italy today. Told her there was a skinny girl inside of me trying to get out. Wasn't a big deal. That's the good part about it. Took a two hour trip during dinner time, no trip thru the drive thru. Munched before I left on good food. So all is well. I have had moments of clarity at the right times today. Not to say I am not working hard for those moments. Cooked this weekend, didn't much like it so I came home at 7p tonight and started again with success. I will still eat the stuff I cooked this weekend because it's not that bad and I can't waste healthy food. But now I got the goods for when I have a moment of not so clear thinking this week.
damn, I'm such an addict. Part of me still looking in going, "this is ridiculous, people hungry all over the world and you gotta spend eveyday journaling and reading about eating healthy food just to get motivated to not kill yourself with junk" I know it's more shaming going on in my head so I will let it go. However another moment of clarity is providing gratitude for this good healthy food I have and I do not feel deprived somehow because I can't kill myself and the earth with crap.
B-garbanzo bean patty, roasted potatoes
L- big bowl split pea soup, raw veggies-caulif, broc, red bell pep, zucchini
S-garbanzo bean patty, roasted potatoes
d-small head of butter lettuce, garbanzo bean patties-2, veggie soup
Used a wee bit of nonstick spray for patties and potatoes. Will not do so again at the advice of wise Bob.